Archiving 2023

Not living life to the fullest, lacking substantial ways to contribute or engage with the world, or perpetually being trapped in the same routine, role, or persona over and over again — will always be on top of mind if someone asks, "What is your biggest fear?"

In the not-so-early 2023, found my old notes, and said something about "you ain't doing the same thing for 75th times and called it a life", boooommm! Little did I comprehend my life before my post-graduation (not to mention there are also a lot of opportunities and new experiences I've had, still blessed and grateful), However, in comparison to my university life filled with work, volunteering, joining organizations, even managing a tiny business, I've recently drifted from those pursuits. Why? How?

June, precisely. I reunited with Mas Agah. A year prior, our connection for a Bangka project seated us side by side on a flight, where I anticipated a peaceful slumber until touchdown. Yet, to my surprise, we discovered commonalities in books, movies, travel, and art. Mas Agah's talent and art are just amazing. Our conversation soared until Mas Agah casually asked, "Lo lagi baca buku apa, Fif?" .........I was lost, —I hadn't read any new book for over a year, why? How?

It is still June 2023, I had a dinner with a personal coach, a woman I aspire to be. It's not coaching, it's just me and Mba Feli having dinner, it's just a casual yet personal conversation most likely about passion, career, and love, and the ending was she really believes I should live abroad (hahaha I wish).

It is still June 2023, on other days, I and Jessica had an intense conversation about career and development with Pak R one of my clients, there's one line where he reminds us at the end knowing what we did, "Don't forget to develop and take opportunities for yourself yaa Mbak".

It is still June 2023, and the universe really speaks to me for what I've been questioning from the beginning of 2023, there's one person a senior, Mas Pras I have a lot of respect for him being a human being, a very humble person, and he put a lot of trust for us (at that time to me and Jessica on that lunch table).


June wielded a formidable influence, humbly reminding me of the potential, passion and that work is a subset of life.

What changed after June? Well, I've devoured 10 books by December, honed new skills, returned to volunteering, and seized fresh opportunities. Feeling more fulfilled as a human being. Cherishing countless sunsets, places, winds—every facet of life.

Archiving 2023—to embrace greater humility, widen doors, and invite more luck, means to always say YES and LEARNING more and more.

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