Make it 21

21

To be honest, for her birthday is just one of another day. As much she remembers, she never romanticizing birthday before like everyone does. But this age, this 21 she started to think, reminiscing, and let's look back for five years before she makes it today.

A lot of things, people, moments, conditions are changed, and for good, she as a person also changes. Even yes sometimes going to the dark, sometimes to the light. Yet, as she changes, she knows her worth, and her value, everything else is just a LIFE, where swing between one day and someday; one day will be fine and someday go wrong.

To reminiscing, she starts to look back to five years ago. It was 2015, she was 16 didn't know much about life, friendship, love, peace, and self-worth but this universe guides her with a rough and laugh in other years. She was 18 and realize bad experiences are just another experience to keep this life balance, nothing much nothing less. And 19 was a year really change her perspective, her mindset, and the journey begins, a lot of adventures in unexpected ways happened. Her question about this universe works, time by time she finally knows the answer. She still learns and bare more, and believe that life is beautiful and always be.

In addition, to look back she thanks God for every birthday that she has passed this past five years always with her loved one. For 2015 with her used to be boyfriend but also her best friend. 2016 with her senior high school friends (before 15 July) and 15 July with her father doing a road trip to Semarang for the sake of UM UNDIP. 2017 celebrating with her ex-boyfriend but still also her best friend after doing UM PTN again. 2018 with a lot of stranger people and become her favorite people who really have a positive impact and was one of her best moment in life, celebrating at the beach on the pick-up and everyone start singing the happy birthday song, wishes, and hugs, then go to gas station and her Cancerian friends gave her birthday cake from seven eleven. 2019 her best friend come to her house, give hugs and present then take her out for lunch. 2020, today as she planned, she wants to celebrate this day by herself and doing a little bit self-appreciation to herself, but again life gives her more than she taught. Today, 15 July 2020 has a road trip with Alya and Gilang kind of short gateway after staying at home for this quarantine. Blown away the balloons of hope to the sky at manA Bandung, singing, laughing. 

Aah, the memories. Years mean so much, every ending and change is just a new beginning. Yet somehow she knew, life always gives more than she thinks at the right time. This 21 age won't be the same without everyone around her and the ups&downs journey.

For the last time, she doesn't know where she will be or with who, and how in five years again. But if she could make it to 2025, I hope that she never forget who she was and always take her courage and be kind.